[
8/31/2004
|8:58 PM]
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY
to all the teachers out there, my salute to u! =P
the teachers' day celebration was okayy. kudos to ortus council. gd job to zhikang for his song "The Reason" though he sang a little out of tune =\. and after the celebrations, i spent around half an hour struggling to give out all the presents in a staff room filled with students. i couldn find mr gan's though... hm ^curses and swears.. the strain would be much bigger.
and as usual we went back to greenridge, this year's better than last year because more huazhong pple went. actually makes no difference. wad the boys do is to spend 30 mins talkin crap to the teachers and the next 2 hrs or so playing soccer. well at least we saw ol' jumat and saw a drawing of mr suresh. one big round ball, ok lorhhh so niao... and hes back to his old self.. always dampening the spirits, the equalvalent of mr lim, guess this is what the discipline masters have to do. to cover their caring side to carry out their job.
sorry to branden who had to spend teachers day all alone at suntec, because of the amazing race, he was one of the station-masters. after playing soccer, i called him and realized he was one the way home! thought of having dinner with him dere. oh well. teachers day was still okayy. looking forward to the holiday 2mr... which will be spent in union room. haiz
/shiwei
[
8/29/2004
|9:04 PM]
how time flies. the 2004 athens olympics i coming to a close 2mr morning. going to catch it. i've missed the opening ceremony and i won't miss the closing, even if i sleep in class tomorrow. who cares. when the sydney olympics ended, i was like, "omg, 4 years.." and it's gone now. this olympics i say shud be the best i've seen. the upsets were surprising yet nice to watch, well the victories were expected but still nice to watch (lame..) singapore almost clinched her first medal. but oh well, got kinda angry after watching "today at athens" this morning, where there was a joke session about "5 ways to make s'pore get a medal" 1. add in sms-typing competition. 2. add in complaining competition 3. get some black athlete from usa dat din qualify for the dream team and the last 2 i forgotten.
the swimming team might be hauled as the worst singapore ever sent, but overall, i feel that our athletes really tried their best... kudos to them.
cried after last night's basketball finals between Argentina and Italy. the passion and determination to win it for their country really moved me. when the final whistle was blown, the Argentine players all cried. cant stand these type of emotional situation. haiz, relating it back to x-slc. fuck, 3 months still brooding over it. oh well.
tingwei, so long as your conscience is clear, you have nothing to be afraid of. go for it
shitz, i think orientation is going to screw up. becos of a bai lei organizing secretary who cant even finish a sentence without stuttering or pausing.
/shiwei
[
8/28/2004
|12:43 AM]
just woke up from a nap. now going to watch olympics. canoeing i think... hope the us gets into basketball finals, i'm surprised they got that far.
tired after orienteering test =X yes! i finally gotten all 6 stations plus the e station. woohoo. think nobody did dat, or did they? however im not satisfied with the timing., 1h 20 mins out of 1h 45 mins given. it was personal best but the rest of the part all hit below 1h 10 mins. i felt so zi bei. but kinda not our fault. the 1st station was placed wrongly, spent 30 mins looking, and so got demoralized. can u believe it. dis was the reason i actually used to console myself and i told the ncos. im just a bastard who wun admit defeat. and im disgusted with my attitude just now.
at the first checkpoint, there were 2 pairs (mine and honghao's), 2 ncos and 2 sirs. and we all can't find the checkpoint! then honghao whispered "eh zhao dao le ma?" i answered "hai mei you" den kena caught ncos us and said we violated rule. communicating. fuck lorh. after the whole thing, asked us to stay back. damn bu shuang. got so many other groups take shortcut, communicated, but only catch us. win liao lahh. the whole part knew abt the shortcut into chs thru bball court, the earlier grps got in by there. by the time we got there, lujie and ernest were there camping, so we had to make one big round around duchess. fuck. anyway, cannot blame dem lah, so unlucky.
anyway, we did our best. tingfeng, i misunderstood u.
my partner, my platoon-mate, you rock . =)
/shiwei
[
8/26/2004
|9:11 PM]
what a roller-coaster ride today is. one day after the camp, im sure the whole sec 2 level would be dead tired and some ponned school today. well i slept at 9 last night, which was chao early. was listening to qi li xiang, "yu xia zheng ye" den it realli rained. so lame, and it was so adequate for sleeping..
proed had some inter-disciplinary project thingie, ispark and aphelion had usual lessons while ortus, rumoured dat they didn need to go to school. well the lessons realli suck, but better than usual. cos we watched vcds during those lessons, all on the hungry ghost festival. during chinese period we watched a lame cartoon about a granny who knows magic. slept thru dad. eng wasn too bad, spirited away was nice. i got 72 for lit. was quite satisfied. i knew ih was gone case.
i really like morning duty, or rather the people that are placed together with me at the porch, branden, xuanyi and huijie. we always talk about the same topic everyday, and it was interesting to see our progress on this issue. sometimes, i really want to be neutral. but im sick and tired of it. the system is so smart that once u become zai or hold a major post, u automatically cant help it but be part of it. its so irritatiting but inevitable. and of cos some rise up due to sucking up. u know who u are. and i realized that there would be two consequences when being neutral, number one is that you become damn popular because u agree with anything, or end up following everyone. can it stop? is he going to start the plot? just execute it, ill support u.
went union rm to clean up. i dragged for one week. and i dun feel good with mr gan around nowadays, i simply lost that close connection with him in term 2. im now even hesitating whether to get a gift for him for teachers day. its so stupid, on one hand, i want him to make use of him to excel and push forward, on the other hand i dun want our relationship to strain further apart. sometimes its so frustrating to lose what you originally had because of some stupid mistake, but you cant get it back because you are supporting your "opponent" to make full use of that thing. sometimes u feel like backstabbing that guy, after all he caused me so much trouble. loads of trouble, so much that i may be crippled in the future, not literal. on the other hand, i feel such a hypocrite to harbour this thoughts. who should i be.
had pds self-training with kwok, jared, stanley and bingyeow, derrick from part a. kinda teaching dem to do more drills. bingyeow is improving fast, so far he learnt sungfoo, tapping, slapping, vos and even wave. yeah believe me. hes zai. so jiayouX yeahh..!
suffered a blow just now when tingfeng said hes going for the nynh camp instead of orienteering tmr. thanks, my orienteering partner, i guess i hafta go solo 2mr. i cant believe it lahh, to put some stupid camp in front of brotherhood, well i guess, my perceptions of people hafta change.
feeling sad and teary now after listening to x-slc songs... esp leaving on a jet plane. 2 and a half months since the end of slc. for some people, the memories might just fade away as time passes, but for some the heart will grow fonder.
cant wait for the two appointments next week, or at least they are the only two things that i look forward to. haiz.
btw xuanyi. dun close your blog =P read your tagboard for more info.
/shiwei
[
8/21/2004
|9:51 AM]
its a few minutes to pds training, and im still at home. kept to my word of ponning. i did some soul-searching last night. and i thought i was being childish and reactive. must apply the 7 habits. haha, who am i to voice out my disagreement so readily, whenever i want. just take defeat in out stride and continue to advance. ponning training isn a way out. okayy i done it now but im going beach rd later... to get the 65l haversack for monday's camp, den goin to scgs open house. but one thing i dun understand. its the same clique that gets to experience new stuff, achieve greater things, wun it make the gap bigger? won't the others feel left out. i dunno. congratulations to ten btw.
- 10.41pm
read xuan yi's blog. hes still unable to accept the fact. might be a good thing.
there's nothing i can do. i will beat them at the orienteering test. i will. i will run till i drop lor. serious. going to prove the nco(s) wrong. same to shiwei dingjie nic huijie branden. together we will form a better team....right?
revenge it will be.
i might sound vserious. but i am really serious.
for honour,
for pride.
you have my suppoprt. go for it. overpower them.
/shiwei
[
8/20/2004
|10:17 PM]
had orienteering today. its supposed to be a selection to select 10 pple to represent our unit for the orienteering comp. out to prove myself after the failure last week, gonna get full marks, and who knows selected? tingfeng and i piaed real hard, somemore running in no.4 in the rain, in half an hour, we found 3 of the clues, morale was high. mind over body, we chanted. though the sickening rain torn our map twice, and made our uniform heavier every minute. we had 30 mins left for the last clue, we knew we could get full marks le. in the end, we got lost, and no ncos in sight to help us, so we aimless wandered around for 20 mins and finally decided to go back. asked around for directions and finally one guy pointed and told us to run all the way straight to the main road. damn frustrating, the road was so straight that you could see coronation plaza, but u never seemed to get there. we passed nanyang primary and the people at the gate cheered us on. yahh, if you guys manage to come to chs, go ncc! ok, so we finally reached the main road, checked the clock, 4 minutes left. omg, coronation, hcjc den chs kah kee hall, how to finish?? but we still went on, piaed all the way up out gate, and reached dere late, by 1 minute. weell we gave our best. and the "holes" on my feet increased, not to mention blisters.
so the results were out. its the same old people. kwok shieng, jared, shuo xian etc. read xuan yi's blog, thought that it was quite true. i know that xuanyi and nicholas piaed alot, but because of impression, they lose out. so much about spreading chances equally, my foot. let the qiang clique get stronger, go ahead. i dun care. tingfeng was pretty much demoralized too. he even consoled me, u rock! cant stand it liao lahh, wad based on attitude, not stamina nor time, all crap. how do u know who piaed, and who didn. its not dat i am a sore loser or wadeva, but its just always the same old people although some others have already improved and overtook some of dem, its all based on impression. gonna pon pds tomorrow. i dun really care liao. now i just want to get the orienteering badge and start to pon training. to think i told him dat one must be able to take humiliation in order to achieve bigger things.
one year ago, i was right at the top with branden, but we slacked off. and i dun think i can ever get back, at least if the chances don't all go to dem.
i've had enough of this shit.
/shiwei
[
8/18/2004
|10:40 PM]
can someone shut the big-mouth up. spread rumours all around and claimed you didn. everyday i have pple coming to ask me, "A in orientation OT ah?" "B going sust next year ah?" from now on, i will just dao.
DISCLAIMER: IF U HEARD ANY RUMOURS FROM THAT GUY, PLEASE DO NOT BELIEVE.
i can still remember how u twist facts, getting people into trouble. like when i told u i got 2 computers. u told the whole world i had 10 pcs, and 4 laptops, and ended up kena niaoed. so just fuck up.
/shiwei
[
8/16/2004
|10:29 PM]
phew. finally some breathing space.. seems like im very busy. actually, i was playing comp games, switching wallpapers, changing window blinds, basically stoning. the tests are gone!! for this year! i got back my geog paper. very gd results. so gd that my name was circled in red ink on the name list, so gd dat i dare not ask anyone else how much they got. so gd dat i was the 1st. from the bottom. haiz. zi bei. actually i expected it. i din study for geog at all, i chose history instead, cos i thought geog was pure common sense but i din know i had so low common sense! maths and science were the last two papers, and they were easier den i expected. science was quite zai, i slept through the last 15 minutes. to think that my heart was beating so fast during morning duty, scared i would fail, xuanyi, huijie, branden and i, instead of catchin late-comers, sat in a square and mugged. xuanyi blabbered so many cheem facts that i've never come across and i was petrified.. omg. in the end, nothing of the sort came out. cheh. but i was disgusted with the act of one of my classmate. he actually copied some of the answers. he got the 1st question wrong, yet he looked at yuguang's paper den changed. and he proudly told me about it. councillor somemore. haiz. so wad if u get a1, so wad if u get exempted. learn to accept the fact dat u weren prepared and get that wrong, u coward. to think so many people respected you, i kept your identity secret cos i am your gd friend. well i dunno what gd friend you are. forget it. see beixi, im doing what im not supposed to. imagine what would happen if that someone got hold of this.
i was surprised dat i could actually finish the whole maths paper, without leaving out a question. my tyco-ness is coming back. tingwei and i went bpp after sch for lunch, and i ponned self-trng. long john silvers was full and we had to settle with mcdonalds. niaoed all the other students there of their unique hairstyle. there was one guy was a chao spastic hairstyle, luckily he was sitting with his back facing us, because everytime he turned back, we would be laughing like mad. i choked on my coke once, then he stared at me, like wanna fight like dat. well u cant blame me.
den tw came to my house to settle level day stuff. ended up playing, tingwei hogged on to my computer and i could only use my sister's computer, msn messenger with plus, no firefox. blehh wasn used to it. and tingwei was infesting my computer with pictures. HER pictures.. ARGH (did i make it obvious enuf =P ) tingwei was using photoshop, cropping and rotating. arghh.. den he talked to iffy. cant believe i lost to her. blehh =( and tingwei's gonna do something great 2mr, jiayou. im behind you, just be yourself. =)
/shiwei
[
8/15/2004
|6:26 PM]
well, wad can one do on a pleasant Sunday afternoon.
to mug. haiz, bet everyone else is doing that. 2mrs the last two tests we're gonna have for the year. den it will be exams. basically, i dun have any hope for my maths this year. dunno wad happened to me. it sucked. i was even exempted last yr, haiz. hoping ms pek will teach me next year... seems like her lessons are much more clearer den mrs. teng, or maybe im just pure slacking.
the other test is science. gonna get a1. den exemption would be within my grasp. want to prove to mrs teo dat im back to my best like last term. ive disappointed her this term.
im almost done with science, now going on to maths. quadratic and congruency sux. blehh
what you said last night meant nothing to you, so that's what I am in your eyes.
do you know how miserable I am. no.
/shiwei
[|5:24 PM]
pds'04 team
/shiwei
[
8/14/2004
|9:23 PM]
had intensive pt this morning. okay, maybe more-intensive-than-usual pt. did 188 pumpings on the road, wad was difficult was not the amount bt the stupid texture of the road. but realli felt the part spirit. my hand bled in the end, but i wasn the onli one. we went on to greater heights, as a part. and nicholas stop niaoing me leh, i was beside him when we knocked. Every now and then, he would ask "shiwei, u cannot anot.. need to report sick?" -.- i realized that my mental was quite gd. =) den we ran 3 rounds, the cheering was not too good. only the brotherhood clique cheered their hearts out, the rest in front were just running, but overall still okayy lah.
attendance was close to full, lujie's team looks to be succeeding, but its too early to say. cant wait for future orienteering and heong pt trngs.
/shiwei
[
8/13/2004
|10:00 PM]
bleh these few days i have been offending loads of people leading to misunderstandings. and the matchmaking thing was a joke =P but his love for her is real. okayy individual apologies..
carin: aiyoh, said what i wanted to ystd. kkz. real sorry about that incident. =S kinda bad first impression. yahh.
mrs chai: also said what i wanted to ystd. you just gotta believe me cos that's the truth!!!
okayy. these few days have been mugging days. ystd was mugging for literature test, got so many notes, din even study all. i regretted watching the swearin-in ceremony, wasted 1 hour of mugging time, whoa realli becoming a mugger. haiz term 3 liao, must buck up on studies, want to go 3A next year. got 55.5/80 for eng compre, not bad lahh, 2 pple got a1, 2d somemore so its okayy liao.
literature test was quite okay. ozymandias and when i have fears came out, exactly the same as last year's. haiz. wrote 3 1/2 pages, which i thought was quite long.. until i asked the rest of my classmates. mingwei wrote 7 pages, douglas 5, yuguang 6 and the rest is kinda self-explanary..
had orienteering for training today. me and tingfeng paired up, i was scared dat i will pull him down cos it was actually my first practice. we failed .. duh cos it was a hard practice on purpose. we got 2/6, and i realized that i couldn read the map, probably because the quality sux. i dunno how, but we exited linden. and appeared at adam food ctr?! den came the memorable sprint. zhixing and shuliang were way in front of us, so i said, fail also must fail sei abit, lets overtake dem. so we sprinted till hcjc bridge den tf kena stitches, so hatta wait for him and we finished together. gd job. during orienteering i received the sms, onli to find out it wasn for me. thanks.
felt thatt the part a's training is more heong than ours. haiz dunno lah. senior shiwei came back and talked to us.. could see the change in viewpoint since his ps times. whole part played soccer after training, we were still full of energy. huijie had a good game, he was a tireless defender. zai, in the end our team won 3-1 although the player disadvantage. i had an okayy game. assisted one. yess. 2 last tests on monday and its slack time!!! ... till final year exams...
you are ever so dao.
/shiwei
[
8/10/2004
|10:20 PM]
had quite a fun time today at orchard. went out with the 2 xinyings, branden and tingwei. carin was supposed to come but she had to study for history test which was like on thursday?? nvm. someone was real disappointed and upset, and that turned into anger when he msged me and tingwei.. capital letters somemore. if only u let carin know how u realli feel.. ok nvm, the real purpose of this outing was to bring 2 pple closer to each other, guess u should know who if u frequent my blog. xinying(goh) and i have been planning these few days to organize a outing, i had to do the fianance maths project yet i ponned to go for this which i was totally extra??!
we were supposed to meet at orchard mrt at 1pm, and tw came to my house at 11 to confirm our ot.. in the end it as 12.30 and we were still on our way to tw's house to get more money so that he can treat you-know-who.. haiz. in the end we took a cab. spent quite some time looking for the rest. probably becos of their exceptional height XP. it was quite quiet in the beginning, the two girls walking in front and us tagging behind. i realized i had to do something, if not it will be a flop, so i striked off some conversations but still kinda dead.. saw the ny trackers at taka. walked around taka and decided to go cine to catch a movie. haiz. the boys suck, sorry. we were so indecisive, so many times we were stonning deciding on where to go next. when we reached cine, got a bad feeling, and we saw the trackers again!! ... k lorhh, so we reached the cincma, joined the queue and to realize that no vancacies.. arghh!! den of all days, i saw kangjie and his primary school classmates. so i went to look out for his girlfriend, cant seem to find or even remember.. den a couple of girls said i look familiar, and that clement just gotta shout out my name. and they went.. "orhhhhhhhh" shitz, i tot i did something bad or something, and kept staring at me, i know i shuai, but dun need like dat wan.. :P den i went to ask yuhan more about them. dunno wad liyan and candice from 2/8. die. i knew i was dead. arghh... so now u know why i DREAD going to orchard esp cine. okayy, so i decided we shud siam from this place, as far as possible and went ps to try our luck instead. we got four seats, front seats. mean girls was zai. we treated the girls to popcorn and drinks.
act gentleman. i was reminded of proed council's politics, cady was zai, too bad branden was not here with us. he went to wait for carin to come.. aww so sweet. the movie ended at around 7. sorry for not being able to send you home, if you called me, i might have left the cinema and rushed to where you were. oh well, we "sent" the girls home, and were told that carin has arrived! at wisma's kfc... at orchard mrt, we pushed him out of the train, and i knew he would run into another cabin. in the end he really regretted.. haiz. anyway, it was quite a fruitful day for me...
i know i still have a place in your heart. so why can't you love me like before?
what is stopping you? i am always waiting, even though sometimes i know it's no use.
周杰伦- 藉口
翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的冬天 我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见
来不及听见 你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我 也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过 请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我 就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果 我也能够随
我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容 沉默是因为包容
如果要走 请你记得我 如果难过 请你忘了我
/shiwei
[
8/09/2004
|10:43 PM]
happy national day singapore, this is my 2nd time wishing u this. sometimes i really wonder the importance of this day to us singaporeans, it is just another public holiday whereby at 6pm you will all gather in front of the tv and watch the parade, and remarked on how much more money they spent this year compared to the previous years'? is that all? I personally thought so. the significance of this day, the day that we got indepedence is not clearly relected in this generation. i just paid closer attention to the inspection ceremony and march-past and of cos the pds performance, it was so cool. well of course, pm goh's stepping down. 24 nov 1990. sars, terrorism etc. he led us all out of it, into the new milennium. haiz. i respect u.
tomorrow will be a fine day! =)
/shiwei
[|12:58 AM]
our SLC 2-month old Birthday cake. the fruit of our labour for 7 months... :(
/shiwei
[|12:57 AM]
presenting the x-slc organizing team!! ... cracking brain teasers...
/shiwei
[|12:51 AM]
arghh dead tired. played soccer in the morning, and went to janice's house for slc party 3.
i overslept this morning, woke up at 7 and rushed to the pending.. only to find only xuanyi and shaojie dere. both wore singlet-jerseys. sj wore a team singapore one, while xy wore his pri sch basketball's. hm. so revealing. erpz, i've become more gay. okayy, so i called the rest up and ended up realizing dat wad im doing are wake-up calls.. take marcus, he woke up when the phone rang. ok lorrhh. after the matches, we sat down at the benches and began to talk cock, from the curse of community shield to zhihong's erhm.. since zhihong left early to do e.lit project. and someone is dying to know what it is =P
i had a gathering to attend at 3 and a party to go at 5.. okay. must put my lousy prioritizing skills to good use, urm a little bit of compare and contrast yah?
after much thinking, i decided to go for the gathering and then pia to eunos. fark. the gathering totally sux. we were walking around funan( of all places ) for rounds and rounds, i bought a bottle and a headphone and decided enough is enough, off to eunos, and i made it in time! hmm. sort of late. but nvm, when i got there, only 6 ot members were there.
everybody arrived at janice's house erm at 6, one hr late. however it din matter, and the girls started eating.. k lorhh. next it was the games fpp planned. the most memorable one was the "couple" game. tiffany and i totally rockked! ^yellow.watermelon.coke.161.51 Woots. we just sucked at telepathy with seng and carol. den we played truth or dare, which turned out to be shoot, shag or kill.. luckily i got a rather easy question. pole-dance or strip-tease? hm. waddya say.
/shiwei
[
8/06/2004
|10:53 PM]
pds'04 team!!
3rd row (from left): daniel. tingfeng. yuhan. kwok shieng
2nd row (from left): andrew. shuo xian. seng yeow. zhi xing. jared. zhi yi
1st row (from left): stanley. guan chiang
/shiwei
[|10:37 PM]
phew.. was on the frantic search to get jay's new cd. i went greenridge and they din have it. den went to fajar, needa reserve so i went bpp. on the way to bpp, the shop keeper from fajar called me and informed me that the stock came. so i ecstatically ran back to fajar to get it. am listening to it now. roxors. ok.
today was ndp. the parade was okay, we din too as good as expected. the marching contigent as first were sucky. when the first half raised their left hand, the other half raised their right. and the right marker (dun wan to mention who) is marching the stupid way, right leg right hand, left leg left hand, try that, and it was till the march past mr hon, dat he realized and he changed wrongly somemore.. haiz.
pds was okay, but at some instances, the rifle was dropped. shitz. when i was watching the performance, i was feeling sad. dunno y. i recalled my first training. and the selection test i failed badly, and the rehearsals we been thru. i really wante to perform. anw after the whole thing, pds took a grp foto. yeahh! cliques rox.
/shiwei
[
8/05/2004
|10:52 PM]
finally history and geog test over... im now more worried about the geog test, think i will fail. din even study for geog. used my general knowledge to answer the questions.. although it was low, there was no other choice. haiz. and i got scolded by my mum for "last-minute" studying, as in who doesn? i dun like mugging for tests so many days earlier than the actual thing, have short term memory, will forget the facts. like history, i also mugged the night before and it all went in fine.. i wrote quite alot and im nt scared =P ..
wheres the joy in learning, sometimes i wonder. all parents think of are grades. not how u get them. wdv larhh, just ignore dem and they will stop nagging.
had ndp rehearsal just now, zhi yi and i were practically slacking on the terraces. doing absolutely nothing.. we are reserves for pds. on the track, you can see the supporting contigent marching under the scorching Sun. and on the field, you can see the pds peeps spinning the rifle, and us? sitting under the shade talking to sergeant guo bin. i cant help but feel stupid. it's like i'm stuck between the two. being a reserve, u cant march, but yet u also cant perform in pds.
after training, the whole part went to play street soccer, its a miracle its empty. then in the end got controlled by ncos, so we left. cant do anything. then came the zai thing, have u seen 30 people climbing over the sch gate together. woo hoo, felt proud. part spirit. haha lame..
well 2mr is the day, all the best to pds and marching contigent.
/shiwei
[|10:24 PM]
part b '04!!! ... climbing over the gate.
/shiwei
[|10:24 PM]
jeremy and xuan yi.. (tuck in your shirt ah councillor...)
/shiwei
[
8/04/2004
|10:24 PM]
bleh. im becoming a nerd. i was mugging immediately after i reached home till now. bleh. tomorrow's history and geography common test. my humanities totally suck! shall talk more later... after i finish.
/shiwei
[
8/03/2004
|10:54 PM]
haiz too vexed up. chatting with nicholas and daryl about well.. me. and my problem. let's not kick up a big fuss. these 2 seniors are the best one can find. and im really grateful for what they have done during our term of office. im tearing right now i dunno why. emotions just got the better of me. i dun want to think too far. i really dunno what will happen then. lots of things going on in my mind. my 1 month overdue third submission, my 2 tests, you, orientation and most importantly qm. i was writing my exposition essay but i just could not concentrate. all i could think of was blazers. huh, u might ask y blazers, welll im trying to find out why too. so i blasted music into my ears, jay's new album (side-track abit.. everyone must buy hor. it rox!) okay. but it didn work, only these 2 seniors know of my situation and are asking me to tell me more. where on earth can i find better seniors. haha. well think i hafta stay up till very late 2nite. finish my essay.. start to mug for hist and geog and settle the beginning of orientation. all the best. and the only thing i'm looking forward to is slc party 'o3. sadly
teocc is a very nice teacher. she scolded me today but im happy about it. it just shows her expectations towards me and its high, maybe even towards exemption. i can sense the level of disappointment and concern she had when i constantly make boo-boos these few weeks. i forgot to bring my cam for the competition, then next day no battery. i even placed the cd on the wrong table. then today i flunked the sci assignment 5/40. woohoo rocks. dun worry mrs teo. ill remain in a1 for the year. dun you worry, i did it for two tests already. i just have to focus for next next week's and who knows? maybe exemption haha. rock on.
visited greg's lj. wow. his recent post attracted 67 replies. topic was on.. wad else tnf. hmm. think theres really no use fighting it out now, its over. but i anyway i'd still like to ask. where was cedar when we arrived? where was cedar when our councillors were screaming and shouting while carrying the banners over to the banner area? i had no idea why sports sch got the other part of grandstand. but really i wish for peace. deres no point...
i am collecting the bits and pieces of glass that i broke along the way. along the way to self-discovery. self-renewal.
/shiwei
[|7:46 PM]
i feel so darn horrible. today was the second student body conference. i was the emcee for last terms for sec 1s, bt this terms it was sua yu. haiz, i sucked too much liao. cant even speak one complete sentence without stammering, feel so useless. yu guang asked me why i wasnt the one. i had to put up a false smile but yet i felt so terrible inside. and regarding the blinds survey, greg pointed out that 2d have not handed up their survey yet, and everyone stared at me. cos i was the one i/c. i felt stupid, i gave it to daryl liao lah... i've failed again. mr gan was present and i'm sure he must be feeling even more disappointed in me. haiz. in the end
it doesn't even matter
during assembly, my phone suddenly rang. someone sent me an sms, and i din switch to silent mode, and the msg tone was the looney toons theme. oops. luckily mr lee was at the other end, and the whole population was too noisy to hear it. and then during common test again, the phone rang again, not once, not twice but thrice ahh.. this time not so lucky, invigilator was in front of me. she stared at me. erpz. luckily i was not suspected of cheating, anyway, cheat for wad. the test was quite easy after all. i dunno lahh. term 3 liao, either you make or break. my major concern is mrp. haiz. pia so much also no use. i dunno lahh.
branden and some of us talked about politics again. amazed that some people i din think of actually are backstabbers. ah. proed council is so complicated. im stilll restructuring the orientation ot. slc 2005 ot is out, dunno more than half of the people there. arghh. not very optimistic bout it.
how can i prove my worth when there are so many people out there eyeing every opportunity. spotting every mistake i make.
/shiwei
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8/02/2004
|10:33 PM]
janice took this!
/shiwei
[|10:33 PM]
seng and greg... mesmerized by the mass dance
/shiwei
[|10:12 PM]
my first day at morning duty, branden and i are situated at the porch. As it was the Sec 4 common test.. we only caught one latecomer from 1A.. sad lahh. never mind, tomorrow will be a better day. branden and i talked about quite a lot of stuff, and went into politics, in ncc and i found it to be very true. I looked at this matter on a different paradigm, and i will be observing them. those hypocrites. those whose minds are thinking one step ahead of others. those who want to monopolize. i despise you.
the rest of the lessons were all the same.. boringly interesting. esp. malay, well i passed my ejaan again. After school was exciting, seng yeow and i found ourselves closer in getting an A1 in our literature test next week, not gonna say how. way to go seng yeow! SUST had a meeting about cedar's complaints towards our "rude" behaviour to them during tnf. lol. and we talked on the new structure, sounds real complicating to me. all i want to focus now is my qm and orientation.
i went to take the flags and cleared the logistics to storeroom, its time i start to reclaim what was mine. guess some of you would understand what i mean. had a little talk with mr gan last week, cried. i have not been touching my qm stuff since last month, and has dumped everything to daryl. and i tired him out. what a lousy bastard i am. i still remember that i was enjoying qm work during founders day, going all out to get blazers for councillors and getting niaoed by erik. what happened to me now? can someone tell me? why am i focusing on the wrong things at the wrong time. fuck me. but i will rise from here. will never this get the better of me. i give you my word, esp to mr gan if you're reading this, i will find myself back.
yahh and kudos to tingwei for helping me with the logistics. hes still mad about her, im totally disgusted at the nickname that she gave her. eww.
and i still love you so .. i know its wrong but i cant help it.
/shiwei
