[
5/29/2005
|1:32 PM]
slacking in inner space!
/shiwei
[|1:32 PM]
the facilitators.
/shiwei
[|1:31 PM]
fac roleplay !
/shiwei
[
5/27/2005
|11:36 PM]
[ Current Mood | determined ]
[ Current Music | - ]
stupid stomach flu. i practically staggered up the bridge, with my face going all pale and i almost vomited outside the main gate. gross! finally puked after recess during english period, in the toilet of course, i realized what i eat = what i vomit, so i'm like super hungry all day, but cannot eat! only can take semi-solid food like porridge! but where on earth in the school has porridge!? so i gave way after combined meeting and shared fried rice with jerry, felt the immediate effects of the stomach churning and made my way to the sofa to restt. and stomach flu is like having non-stop diarrhoea! \(>_<)/ it's like your big intestine has lost its function of absorbing the water and the rectum seems like it's leaking! gahhhh !
anyway. report card back today. results arent that good. thanks to good ol' maths. nevertheless i will strike back !
just came back from slc combined meeting, yes it was another screwing session, but this time the screwing was worth it. i finally see an organizing team, where everybody slogs together, and take the scoldings together. it was the first time the meeting progressed smoothly and i thought it would end at 7.30. hahah then the scolding session began. started with a round of reflections which i personally felt was quite fake. "i've been doing this this for the past 6 months, i know i am slack but i will pia for the next 2 weeks"
ok shall not go into the details. but it was 9.30 when it all ended. and the ot was left in tears. all went out of proed room to cry, but from this incident, the ot finally understood the importance of each and every one. and concept - continue the good job! jerry, dont take jaja's words seriously, we know you aren't like that, the ot, the whole concept team is behind you.
alright OT. this is what i call an OT. ALL THE WAY ! (:
/shiwei
[
5/26/2005
|11:16 AM]
[ Current Music | Karma - Alicia Keys ]
didn't go to school today.
hahah. running a temperature plus a little bit of dizzy spells and vomiting here and there. disgusted with myself yesterday, my dinner got flushed down the toiletbowl. bleaghhh.
what goes up must come down!hurhur tomorrow i'll be back!
even at home, i'm still under pressure. maths test is tomorrow! and at the rate i'm going, i'm going to flunk it yet again. and kangjie is like updating me about the biology term test on 5 july and the holiday homework we have ! x_x
i should have watched the champions league final this morning. such drama!
and i'm still lost for inspiration. ppt templates for slc! looks at ruixiong's designs and i'm discouraged more than ever! \(>_<)/ and i have to redo the designs for ottee! grrr.
and ms.seng just called me lar! blehhhh. indian fps ! @_@
that's why they say you rather die than to fall sick in singapore.
/shiwei
[
5/17/2005
|10:24 PM]
expectations... are they that hard to meet?
why is it when you have put in a lot effort, yet it isn't enough. how do you gauge the expectation that's pinned on you? by your position, by your potential?
/shiwei
[
5/15/2005
|10:04 PM]
[ Current Mood | blank ]
[ Current Music | Tong Hua - Guang Liang ]
watched tong hua and ge qian mv. both revolves round a sick patient, but i still feel that ge qian is nicer! xP
alright now that sabah is over. its byebye obs, hello world. back to reality. 29 days to 11slc, and blehh everything's still not pieced together, the jigsaw puzzle is currently still missing pieces here and there. blehh. and the seniors are initating a plan b? and look at ruixiong's and jaja's nick.
[ 11SLC OT: Don't bother telling me OBS rocks. ] [ 1 more month to 11SLC ] Teddy Bear | Ours en peluche [ 11 Months since XSLC ]
Angelman [Plan 2][Welcome back people from SABAH! Did you have FUN?][Congrats to those who reached the summit!]
blehh. come on ot, we're going to put our act together!
hahah just a general observation on our msn nicknames.
yinghao: [ YinGhaO ] the only way to get to the top is to get off ur bottom [ ob sabah rox ]
jared: -|partC'waHh, zhaii!!!-]| | OBSabah ROCKS! my life's most enriching experience.
daniel: -= DeStInYy =- OBSabah ; conquered kinabalu; 9km trek up. 4km high. Holy
stanley: band.of.bros] shine! OBSabah rawks
yuguang: .:. \\ Taurus'05_OBSabah rox...Champions...ian i wan de-BRIEF
ian: [`ian'.] ____ xD' // The way to the top is to get off your bottom.
xuanyi: xuanyi `* | OB Sabah ROCKS! - my life's most enriching experience. ^ mfl. _ NaGa!_
lokky: - Lokky - Back to reality... OBSabah = escapade from reality's crap
tingwei: [+|n9w3i][MRP][ICTC] OB SABAH ROX!!!! HWACHONG CONQUERS KINABALU. WHATS NEXT!!!!*high*
suayu: [11SLC] [29 days left till 11 SLC... we will] [OBS SABAH ROX... allowed me to see the best and worst in people and places...]
branden: OBS SABAH ROX..really meaningful/Managed to reach the summit of Kinabalu:DGrp Parang Rock On...back from sabah..i m really dead..
daryl: ** #---> " [OB Sabah] to serve, to strive and not to yield... |still ZIAO-ing|
zhenjie: |-) {Eurek@}|-) OB Sabah - Even In The Harshest of Places, Flowers Still Bloom...
shiwei: shiwei [11SLC-29days] _+OBSabah forever; taurus'05 - champion team
hahah a little self explanatory. well. back to slc.
/shiwei
[|3:54 AM]
[ Current Mood | :( ]
[ Current Music | Michael Bublé - Home ]
to the tag in the tagboard: you needn't be so guilty if it isn't you. hm.
home sweet home.
i'm feeling comfortable, just had a refreshing hot bath, drank a cup of coffee, dressed in pyjamas, all relaxed... but empty.
the outward bound sabah camp came to a crashing end, just when everyone was all hyped up and ready for more. 48 of us, thrown into an unfamiliar environment, given harsh conditions, but we made the most out of it. looking at the nickname of those who have reached home. everyone has "OBSabah ROCKS" on it. hmm lemme begin from csm.
well. didn run for 800 and flunked 4x100. hahah i think i ran a 16. wtf lar. and we got last. i dunno what was i doing. i was like striding?! instead of sprinting. and wow all because of me, i pulled the whole team down. never mind. i vow, next year, watch out for 4a! (:
okayy so i rushed home to get my luggage and assembled at the open-air carpark for the briefing. when i got there, it was packed with bags and yahh parents talking to their sons, asking whether they've gotten this and that, and it really made me scared, and i listened to some of their conversations to see whether i missed out something. and all the parents crowding made me feel like as if it's our first day of kindergarten or something. where all the parents will look through the windows to see how their children is doing. boo. yupp so we're off, bus to senai airport, then plane to sabah. then a looooong bus ride to a inn where we rested for the night. was allocated to group 2, which was a shen3 group, having both brains and brawns, three gepers, one x-country champ, two waterpolo, two npcc and one scout.
second day group 1 and 2 went jungle trekking while 3 and 4 went sailing. so we had to reach to top of one hill 1550m high, and it was kinda tiring, not to mention filled with lots of mosquitoes, hahah but we were leading group 1 by 45 minutes. at around 2pm, we reached our campsite and we pitched our tents and went to sleep. then outdoor cooking! hahah making our own fire and cooking our own meals, and it was pretty delicious as well! yum. yupp and as it was outdoors, there were no toilets or whatsoever, so if you want to do your business, you have to dig a hole and stuff, hahah native-style!
third day we descended the hill, and basically we were like losing our balance and rolling down, because the gradient was super steep! its like you cannot see the ground in front of you, as if it was a cliff! hurhur. and a 6km long trek back to the obsabah centre, finally we got our bunks and we did rockclimbing and those typical high elements stuff after lunch. then it was sleep (at 8!)
fourth day group 1 and 2 went sailing and vice versa for 3 and 4. we had to sail to another island yahh and spend the night there. hurhur yupp and the same old thing, reached the island, pitched the tents and cooked dinner yupp and slept early again.
fifth day was sailing back and preparation for the highlight of the camp, mount kinabalu. woots- we took a bus to the kinabalu village to get souvenirs and then spent a night at a holiday resort, where the temperatures start to drop. brr cold. but tension started to rise in the kitchen, between group 2 and 3, hahah everybody bu shuang each other, and a fight almost broke up. the briefing on the climb up kinabalu was scary, it seemed forever to reach the summit, so many huts and peaks along the way! and the temperature there was like 5deg?! ahhh, i wasn't feeling optimistic about it at the beginning.
sixth day, start of climb. as usual, group two went first and reached gunting lagadon, the inn 6km up first, and somemore with a record time at 1.30pm. woots- okayy chou shi. i had a severe leg cramp at the final hut where we wasted 20 minutes there, so malu! hurhur. so the second group to arrive was group 3 at around 3.30, so we went out to welcome them and i guess our intentions were misunderstood, but yahh we played a little too far, clapping for them isn't the wisest thing to do, so zhiguang flew into a rage and bohh yu guang got angry with chiajone and all that little arguments here and there, hmm but sooon it was resolved i guess.
seventh day, woke up at 12.30am, continue to climb up kinabalu, this is when we had to put on our thermals, and 3 layers of clothes plus gloves and all those, bahh. and yet again, group two, first to startt and our progress was too fast because we had to reach at 5.30 to catch the sunrise, so we began to take breaks every 100m and it was real slack, compared to the 7 huts. there, all of us made it, the summit. we conquered mount kinabalu, and it was indeed a special feeling, because we did it not as 48 individuals, but as 1 huazhong. hahah but the expedition was far from over, we had to go back down all the way, the whole 8.7km, bleaghh. and the rain made it worse , back at the centre, it was dinner then sleep, but hmm we played cards till 1+ heheh.
eighth and final day, the final challenge, which consists of two sections, the long wall and rafting, and once again, group 2 won (: hehhe. alright. but it's the process that matters. then it was packing up, certificate presentation and yahh farewell. it was an emotional goodbye, when we sang you raise me up, jijo started to cry, and boo, almost everyone teared, kaiming, jerry etc. hahah and it was tears all the way to the airport. can't believe it ended just like that.
yahh, and so here i am, back at home. i know the above is like a liu shui zhang, but it means alot to me, or maybe to those who experienced all these. recalling and reflecting what you did. and the world is always this cruel, good things always come to an end. its such an irony, i still remember how i dread this camp cause everything's so ulu, no proper facilities and stuff, but if your think properly, being put out of your comfort zone and being able to explore you boundaries is the most comofortable. and it's a once-in-a lifetime chance, and i believe everyone surpassed their own limits, i doubt i can ever climb kinabalu alone.
i am lucky to be in group 2, taurus because firstly, the members' physical fitness is the strongest on average and we are all-rounded. a scout who can cook food and navigate, npcc cadets who can make fire and pitch tents, so we really had a brilliant headstart. but success cannot be achieved if we cannot get our act together, i must say we were the fastest to COME together, and i think kaiming's frankness was the one that brought us closer. hahah! and soon we showed the rest who we really are. legend.
chiajone.yuguang.shiwei.yinghao.ian.dianjun.calvin.kaiming.yicheng.wenzhe.yamhuo.ziyi.
im really missing sabah. missing our instructor who gave us the first impression of being retarded but he rocks and he uses tongkat ali! (x missing the rafflesia bunk which smelled the same as its name. missing the canteen where our group will be the one who waits for everyone to have their food before we sart to eat. missing everything that made up the 8 days. and now its like a dream, it seems that nothing has ever happened and it's back to square one, tomorrow we're going back to school for normal lessons. hahah. but i'm sure the 48 of us will never forget this week.
OBSabah - the best ever camp.
/shiwei
[
5/05/2005
|11:11 PM]
[ Current Mood | blank-ed ]
[ Current Music | 倒帶 - 周杰倫 ]
physics
mutual
prog stuff
english essay
biology
gic had chem common test today. well i think it was relatively easy but bahh could lose lots of marks due to carelessness, oh well hoping for a 40 and above so that msg would be less than 3, hahah so i won't get relieved off my duties. i think the main highlight was that it was last test we go off for a holiday, rather than what mistakes we made. after the test could see many people just fisting the air, "gahh. finally its over" these few weeks are hell man. oh well, hope i can survive sabah. well got into some relationship problems with some of my classmates. probably because i was already in a bad mood. well and i truely reflected what an ENFP would do.
1. whatever mann. everything that goes wrong is because of me. everything i say out right, every secret u tell me = i tell the rest right. hah still say what im suspicious, don't tell you anything. i dunno lar, maybe u have a strong sense of justice, but please do not assume again. i hate it when im accused for something i did not do, and everyone starts pointing fingers at me. wow, then when the truth is out, and i'm not the one, i will be the one who takes the first step to say SORRY right. oh well.
2. and wheres your sensitivity?
3. hahah and i feel that you could cut down on that arrogance, so what if you have been getting straight As, huh, awards lar, all-rounder lar. despise us is it. sometimes i really can't stand it sean flared up today on douglas. i thought they were just playing around as usual, but sean was dead serious. i tried to inject some humour but was just cut down by sean. it's the first time i've ever seen him that angry, hes the gay-gay (as in happy gay xD) type who would most likely be at the bottom of the list for hot-tempered people. hmm this is what happens when we are driven to our limits. remembered there was a time i fought with wenqiang? blehh. alright
and lam's lesson was plain fun! woots- hurhur. helped zhikai with his 1 op okay!
ermm englishh. brrr. chiajone, yuguang, chenfeng, douglas and i were playing around in the library and got scolded by cheryl, now gotta write a 400-word essay titled "social etiquette in the library", how cool is that.
and i don't know what to do for slc. combined meeting tomorrow. i'm lost seriously. \(x_x)/ and i haven started packing for sabah, i'm not ready for it either. i don't know whats happening now. everything's all messed up. right now theres a talk by jaja before the meeting. and he's gonna niao me. alright i deserve it lar, ponned 2 combined meetings, not attending slc, dunno whatt type of programmes i/c am i. wheres the drive i said i was full of? wheres the determination and will to press on? i've lost it.
and this had to happen. i dunno what's happening even. why are you so cold all of a sudden. i cannot take this anymore. my life.
pieces.
/shiwei
[
5/04/2005
|9:31 PM]
[ Current Mood | breaking down ]
[ Current Music | Nelly Furtado - Try ]
All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Try... Try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people, are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try ohh try
Try... Try... Try... Try
All of the moments that already passed
already passed)
We'll try to go back and make them last
(make them last)
All of the things we want each other to be
(each other to be)
We never will be, we never will be
And that's wonderful, that's life
That's you baby
This is me baby
We are, we are, we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love
try
stop torturing me. it's the worst thing that i have ever gone through. worse than the broken collar bone, worse than failing tests, worse than getting last in class. ouch.
/shiwei
[
5/03/2005
|11:43 PM]
i'm having this splitting headache now, and i've got this strange feeling. somehow my mind is being splitted into so many portions, a little bit on mugging, a little bit on doing slc stuff, a litle bit on chatting, a little bit of worrying what would happen in sabah and all kinds of stuff. and i just couldn focus, not that the focal length is very long, and you know in the end, nothing's gonna get out of it. in the end, you will still flunk your tests, dao your friends on msn, rejected proposals and little bits of setbacks here and there.
so i hobbled to the tv and i watched the news, saw lots of people grieving over the late mr wee kim wee and i related it back to council. if only the student body was half as appreciative as the citizens.. ahh well. let's just cheer together on csm, or at least louder than our counterparts and ensure the "hui jia" thingie doesn continue.
alright. more programmes stuff to do. blehh and jijo wants us to all cut botak for sabah, although i dont want to, i just dunno how to reject him.
maybe i'm just too nice (x probably because i feel that i owe him too much, first leaving slc and letting him be the prog i/c instead, like what jerry said, he will freak out, and secondly, i've turned him down far too many times. blehh im guilty. oh yahh! i forgot to take my malaria pills for obs till today! am i going to die ! i'm late by 4 full days!! rahhhhhh
and that stupid school have to just be so nice to criticize us. "oh im shocked at how you guys do things" and oh "you have to stick to your programme, we have to leave singapore at 5" whatever you fuck, we have been doing this longer than you've been bitching at your students, do you think we don't know how to plan? let's just see how shocked you are when you come over. you think you can scare us just because we're frigging students? let's see how your student leaders fare.
rahhh okayy friday i have drill mutual test, then then ifc/m16 mutual practice then slc meeting then helping-out-in-csm-banner, then reach home at 2 then settle the prog stuff before handling them to jianrui before going sabah, then sleep for an 1hour or so, then go to school for csm. yay. oh yeahh where's the word HAPPY in the schedule.
bahh somemore im running. blehh. support me yahh ! xP
alright back to mugging history.
/shiwei
